Yeah ! I m a fucking stupid girl . I know it cant love me , but i try myself to believe it and tell myself for many reason.
Ya ! He tell me dont do anything for it but i cant control myself to think so much to believe so much.
Why every people also think only he will hurt by someone only think he will dissapoint ?
Yeah ! i will tooooooooo..
sorry sorry and sorry , i dont think you will accept but i will apologize for it .
i scare alone and i hate it . i scare it will happens again , so i think i will cancel my SPM .
I tell my dad , i dont know what teacher are saying . i waste my time and waste your money ):
Have I lie them ? Yes ? NO ? i dont no!
Is it the main reason for cancel SPM ? No ? i dont know
But i know i scare . I m fucking scare and i cant control myself anymore.
sorry..
WELL , you dont love me and dont force youself . (: I know it
I will wait (:
When something happen involve me .
I will think him at the first time whatever is about friendship or my relationship with vincent tan -.-
But i cant go find him anytime , we cant talk anytime ):
sorry , i had see something that i shouldn't see ):
He tell me [ 你没想到 没看到 没听到 往往比你知道后感觉来的好些 ] （：
But i must thankyou for what i have see , otherwise i really will think [ YES ! IT LOVE ME SO MUCH ! YES ! I M THE GIRL IT LOVE . I M THE TRUE FRIEND. I M THE IMPOTANT FOR IT AND MANY MANY ]
FUCK OFF ! IT's FALSE ! I'm foolish so only i will think like that only . For it i m only i m only like a feather . feather very light.
VINCENT TAN , i hope you can love me much , i hope i can be the most important for you .
I believe he will not throw me away (: YES ! HE IS IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT FOR ME , NO ONE CAN REPLACE (:
TAN CHIN XIAN , from now you should believe it will love you , because it tell you to believe it . your hope still have 80% because the 100% hope is for her , that is it tell you , not you consolation yourself.
It had tell you so clearly (:
相信你不是我的本领
REMEMBER IT !
VINCENT TAN I LOVE YOU so!
HENG YEE LENG I LOVE YOU TOO !